EDWARD.

i hope my page won't sue me for total abandonment :] im sorry but i have lots to tell.
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i've been gone for like two months and a loooot has changed. im not sure i can tell everything now but i will make time this coming weekend :]

ANYWAY.
we've watched twilight tonight. i liked watching it better than when i was reading it. i guess it's just not right to compare stephanie meyer to jk rowling. it was kind of good just not like HP-good. SM may have a whirlpool of imagination but i'm thinking people are kinda hooked-up on her book only because of the fact that it revolved on romance. i mean, how many of us are suckers for sugar-coated lines?
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ill tell stories when i come back. stories since two months ago, that is.

ta-ta.

PS. i'm learning spanish now. YO ABLAR UNPOKO ESPANYOL :] woot.

HOT AIR BALLOON

Ask me how I get high.
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I have yet to see the sun turn plum. I miss those romantic times, since these days, I have been spending most of my time inside the house. For this matter, someone else's house. Coffee and some lurking thoughts have been my constant companion. I see we've never been this close. Add to that the bitter fact that I still have some errands for school despite the so-called "sem-break".

Last night.
Was the most ridiculous night I've ever experienced (talk about a dozen of my all-time favorite, Krispy Kreme).

Tonight.
Coffee (cause I'm out of words). I hope we finish the supplement in time. Cross-fingers much.

HI, I'M SINGLE?

We’re all unique. Which is another way of saying no one is.
I read that somewhere. And somehow, I knew it was the truth.
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I’d like to think everything is going smoothly according to plan, but I know that that would only come out the wrong way. I know it is the otherwise.
I hate being melodramatic. As much as possible, I try not to be the drama queen. Not only will it waste my time, but I just don’t see the point of being Miss Julie Tearjerker. Not if I can help it.

Today, in the entire history of Dzeli, I feel completely vulnerable. It comes with a bitter concoction of confusion, and I hate it. It’s like I just stepped outside when everything was going right.
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When it’s too good to be true, it probably is. And I believed in that. I knew that the relationship I had was the perfect one. And yes, bottom-line: It was indeed too good to be true. I thought the CONS part comes with the fact that SHE is a SHE. I though that was already the line drawn. That it was already the catch. That that was the ‘too good to be true’ part of it. Or so I thought.

Dear, what a twist. Lumilipad ang utak ko.
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Love is like handing someone a gun, having them point it at your heart, and trusting them never to pull the trigger. –Spongebob

And I am no exception to being mushy at times (even if it involves Spongebob).

Oh crap, do make me day.
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I guess it's about time I borrow Amiel's statement: I like in between spaces; sometimes I get stuck.

SLACK.

pakigising ako pagtapos na ang bangungot na to.
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i wanna die for a day, give me some pill..

COMPLAINING IS FUN :]

Brain, where art thou?
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I am close to actually fretting and this isn't a good sign. We are loaded with edman whatsits and when I say 'we', i meant very few. It sucks to know you're doing your not-so-fair-share-of-no-sleep nights just so you could finish a subject requirement WHEN other people's job is to JUST keep track of what others has done, report, and voila!
And hey, I don't want to go over who gets the credits again. I bet that would appear rather obvious.

Bato-bato sa langit, ang tamaan... ee ano kung may magalit? Totoo naman.

Oh. And when we put an end to all of this crap... maybe we'll see. You know how they always say that payback's a bitch :]

DAM-DAM

and so this famous cycle according to zafra is totally happening to me. now i feel ultimately grossed out just thinking that i made that effin mistake. (oh, god help me, but with him?!) and this time, it's not gonna be a damn cycle.
cause you're not worth any sin.
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i love you, boyfriend.
i know i ought to say things about school craps right now because i've got a loooooooot of school stuffs in mind, but i opted to write something for you. i know you deserve more than this.

whatever it is you're cooking at home (cause you just pushed me outside just so you can cook something special [daw?!] and now, i'm on an internet shop! ), i know it's gonna be yummy :]]

happy 41st 24, banchii :] i'm still in love with you.

I'M STILL IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE...
* who makes me cry so hard but still be the one to make me feel better.
* who never fails to surprise me at the end of the day.
* who makes other girls jealous and green with envy.
* who is a very good kisser and is forever turned on.
* who never likes shopping but would still oblige whenever I nudge him to the next store.
* who keeps me falling fast for his mushy words and leaves me hanging, drooling for more.
* who is extremely possesive that it excites me to see him turning red when he's mad.
* who sleeps late at night just so he could watch me dream of him.
* who is a tempter and whose wickedness is undeniably tolerable.
* who is very much addicted to online games but would easily let go of the controls whenever I start to say "dadii".
* who always try to seduce me with his so-called "macho" body.
* who owns shih tzu pups, do french kiss with them then with me afterwards.
* who has the most expressive smile and controllably gorgeous hair in the whole world.
* who keeps on getting mad whenever I get overly saccharine but still buys me sweets whenever I crave for more.
* who has given me the greatest material things in life noone could've given me in a snap.
* who would trade away his chances of buying his own PSP just to give me more of what I want even if I am not asking for it.
* who gets me real cold water everytime i need one at 4 o' clock in the morning.
* who patiently tries to learn new recipes just so he could help me gain weight.
* who loves me unconditionally that even bad-mouthing when I'm mad is forgettable.
* who thinks I am extra sexy that he suspects every man who'll glimpse at me "manyak".
* who has always been the reason why I keep on believing that God is good.
* who has everything I lack.
* who makes me wanna cut classes just to see him and ditch school just to get married to him at this very moment.
* who is obsessed with my yummiest pair of chocobutts.
* who has always admitted I'm the boss but never ever felt bad about it.
* who never loses hope that we can make all our plans BINGO.
* who thinks having my initials as his tattoo cool and having me between his legs, hot.
* who stays with me when everyone else has failed to.
* whose only dream is to have a good life with me someday.
* who makes me proud eventhough I don't get to tell him everyday.
* who I am going to be with forever and beyond that effed-up, overly-used word.

YOU ARE THE BEST PART OF MY EVERYDAY.

GO GET SOME.

Miracles do happen. But you got to experience it, to believe.
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SEPTEMBER 11, Thursday.

ENVIRONMENTAL SEMINAR
Technically Wewei was invited on this symposium as a speaker. Oh yea, environment ang topic, darr. Wag daw akong disclaimer pero talk daw namin yun, although I was only the culprit for all the graphic designs I customized for her presentation. Pahirap! Haha :] So ayun, after the talk, we were escorted to La Cacita for a free lunch [oha!] with our new friend, Jenina, from CBA. Nakakatawa kase sa sobrang daldal namin, parang na-invade na naming utak nya, haha! Shh. Afterwhich, naglagalag lang kami ni Bil sa bazaar tapos umuwi ng dorm to see Beb before she leaves to Quezon City [sob.] at para iwan narin si macbook.

PHOTOSHOOT
After we bought this 24-shot 100 ASA na film sa Konica, we headed back for school na for our photojourn’s photoshoot. Model ko si Bil at vice-versa. Ang cool mag-photoshoot kase experimental xa. I mean, high-key and low-key yung gagawin namin but with a twist kase manual yung cam na gagamitin :] Kumusta naman talaga yun kung hindi ka si Andrew Tadalan di ba?! HAHA!

THE PRE-PAGEANT.
Bumalik din kami sa school to watch this annual event. Mmkay naman yung Ginoo at Binibining AB COM. Personally, I think that talent-wise, it was more “pinaghandaan” ng mga competitors compared to last year’s :] We’ll see nalang kung mapagmamalaki ba yung Q&A portion, hee :]

KTS
Hectic no? Super dami ng event for this day, haha! So after the Pre-pageant, kami nalang ni Chaksito ko ang magkasama [Mars, chorale rehearsal. Wewei, went home na. Yanners, nasa ULS na kase HF task nya yung KTS]. Kumain muna kami sa Fiat, bought frappe then Ikot Lasalle. Total Savior talaga since the rain’s pouring hard and we have a bruised umbrella, haha! Actually, din a nga ku dapat mag-KTS ee, but since nag-promise na nga din aku kina Rod na I’ll support them, kaya yun. Ayun, pagdating namin dun, saw Yanners then we went na sa backstage. I texted Rodfill [of Moymoypalaboy] narin kase na we’re there na nga. Ayun, konting kwentuhan tas break-a-leg :] Interesting naman yung some parts of the event [or should I say yung mga nangyari within the premises of the event?] Anyway, ayun. Masaya lalu na super enjoy yung main event which is the Moymoypalaboy Mini Concert nga :]] Katabi ko sa gilid ng stage si Ms Mitch, their manager. I’m glad kase super naaalala nya pa kami, cool. Cool din kase there was this instance the Moymoy pointed at me while he’s singing, oha! I hope the Lasallians indeed had fun during their spot :]

PS. Whoever organized this event should always take into account that whoever is listed to perform, should be pampered. REGARDLESS if they think that GROUP A is more of scene stealers and worth watching than GROUP B. Who are you to conclude that? Afterall, they’re both accredited student organizations. And mind you, you do not know what damn hassle you’ve given them just so they could pull a song arrangement for this event. That sucks, at least on my point.

Around 9.30 na yata kami nakauwi. Si Chaksito ko, pumunta muna sa dorm at nagdinner kami then pumunta na sya kina Yanners kase my kelangan sila gawin :] Good night.

SEPTEMBER 12, Friday.

It was still freakin’ raining. I love the rain, but I hate to remember that I lost [or left] my cute umby :[ Ayun, Edman was blunt. Sir Polo only talked about this upcoming field trip and some new topics about designing and layouting. Went home with Chaksito ko afterwards kase nga we badly need to sleep, haha! Kaso di ako ganu natulog, kumain lang ako ng kumain habang tulog si Chaksito ko. At aound 1.45, I headed back to school na kase nga itung biglaang niyakag ako na Environmental Quiz Bee na ang akala ku pa nung una Spelling Quiz Bee, haha! Terror kamo kase yung mga competitor naming ibang college, particularly yung COS, nagre-review! Haha :] Anyway, naghanda na kami ng defense mechanism statement naming pag natalo kami [im with Rea and Wei] na “COM kami at di naming linya to!” di ba?! haha :] Ayun, the game started rather roughly kase 4 Qs lang sa easy round yung nasagot namin. Talagang sabi namin, nako di pwede to! Kaya nag-focus na kami ng bonggang-bongga, lalu pa narinig naming merun daw price money na 1000 sa 3rd runner-up, so ayun din a kami nag-ambisyon sa first, ok na kahit 3rd nalng, haha :] It has really been our motivation kase super nakahabol talaga kami, kaso mejo alanganin kase yung CEAT dikit sa score naming, kaya nagdasal kaming tatlo. OO, nagdasal talaga kami. Humingi kami ng X-deal sa Diyos. Na gabayan nya kami tapos merun kaming gagawin for him in return to thank Him for REALLY guiding us. I swear, out of 12 Qs sa difficult round, 3 lang ang mistakes namin. Nakahabol talga kami kase 7point per correctly answered question yung difficult round. Funny nga kase difficult kami umariba tas Easy lagpak?! HAHA :] Tas we gained new friends kase sila kuyang chismoso, nagging pasaway na officer, nakikipagkwentuhan sa gilid ko habang quiz bee?! Haha :] Pinagalitan tuloy sila ng Game Master, haha :] Ayun,basta bottomline, si God ang nagging chalk namin. We won not 3rd, but 2nd place pa! At di lang 1000 and napanalunan naming, kundi 1500! Kaya tig-500 kami! Grabe diba? Easy money! [Pero I’m telling you, super hirap ng mga questions tlga!]

PS. Kung anuman yung ineX-deal ko sa Diyos, gagawin ko talaga yun. I’ll be true to my word. And I think, in the long run, I’ll still thank Him for making me choose this kind of deal. No, it’s not about going to church every Sunday. It was bigger than that, I should say. Mm.

We went sa chapel afterwards. At oo, suot pa naming medal namin! HAHA. Then sa Coronation night ng Ginoo at Binibining AB COM [na hindi naman ako gaanong nakapanuod dahil bukod sa late ako, ai nakipagkwentuhan lang ako ke Anna, haha!] BTW, Congrats sa lahat ng winners lalu na sa aming pambatong si Elaiza Coching aka Betty La Fea.

After nun, nagkita kami ni Yanners, nilibre ku xa ng frappe tapos dorm na kase nga andun pa si Starla na sagana na sa tulog! Pagdating ko, tulog pa siya?! Ugh. Haha :] Ayun tas nag-McDo kami for dinner tas partways na.. Paguwi ko nasa dorm na sila Mama, may kukunin kase sya sakin, tapos konting kwentuhan tas umuwi narin sila.

Solo flight nako uli. Liberating? Could be.

I wish I could understand myself more. I wish you’d understand me better. Kagaya nga ng sinasabi ko sayu nuon, “Sana kaya mong mag-swimming sa loob ko para di nako mapagod kakapaliwanag sayo..” Mahal naman kita, minsan praning lang ako. Sana alam mu yun. Sa lahat ng nangyari nuon na hindi dapat nangyari, alam na ng Diyos yun.

X-mark to my corny details,
My tongue is tied for all the right words I’m suppose to say.
Basta Mahal Kita, bleh!
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Many question me about my love for you as opposed to my belief in God,
but I know it will only boil down to one answer:
Afterall, in the beginning, God created love.

HAND ME DOWN

VD. hindi yung STD. VD as in "Vague Dissatisfaction". yung feeling na you can't feel it's right but nothing in particular is wrong. andae kong iniisip.
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i just got home from a very long day. at some point i want to relay it in full details but damn it, napapagod talaga ko, haha! ang weird kase ng-blog pako no? ugh.

teka. manunuod muna ko uli ng pursuit of happyness. babalikan kita, mmkay?
magisa nako uli sa dorm nga pala.

FO SHO

i still have this plummeting dream that someday, i’ll have my much-needed 8-hour sleep. or if lucky enough, a 12-hour one.
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our edman journey has just begun and i should say i am kind of disappointed on the outcome yesterday. but on second thought, i’m happy our efforts kind a paid off. i believe deprivation of sleep just so you could SO work on a project is badly reasonable to be on top. ika nga nila, “nagsusunog ng kilay.” it’s not even cramming, speaking on my defense. and to top it all, we have the most realistic proposal among others. i even went through the criteria of judging to make sure that whatever happened is accurate and just. my findings? mm. i guess i’ll just keep it to myself. or to my blockmates, at least :] peace.
looking on the brighter side, we won several arguments with the panel and i consider that a semi-there public thesis defense practice, hoorah! haha :]

today.
my body’s still sore. i guess my eardrums did not work well, too, since i have not heard my alarm beeped. nadah. i was in an immaculate sleep, i was not able to attend my photojourn class. well afterall, even if i have heard the alarm-clock-from-hell, i still wouldn’t be able to prepare for class cause yea, my body’s sore. thanks to ayban labss i was able to relieve my shoulders on some heavy magazine i have to carry on my way home last night :] much love, oha!
at 1pm i intended to attend our teaching strat make-up class but thought otherwise as i was advised by my dadii not to go. who am i to disagree? haha :] [in case you have not noticed, that’s a euphemism for 'me-being-lazy'] but i did go to school at 3pm to pass our thesis. which was another weird story as i was confronted by the teacher-in-charge about another controversy instead of out thesis like we were supposed to. funny how he cares so much when he’s not even involve on the said “controversy”. i wonder why but on second thought, idc.

dadii and i went to the mall afterwhich to unwind and relieve myself from much stress. bought a dress and a pair of shoes. somehow, everything seemed normal :]

PS. i am too ecstatic about tomorrow as i will already buy my gift for boyfriend: a mint-green PSP Slim and Lite :] uyea. and yes, I’m filling it with games, haha!

PPS. roadfill of moymoypalaboy just texted that they'll be guests for the upcoming KTS, im so excited :] i promised him i'll give him a tour of the campus afterwards :]

PPPS. is it "one-million-trees-and-beyond" all over again? that is if you get what i mean.

CLINCHER

my body is all sore. massage me, please?
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im dreading tomorrow. for sure the very know-it-all he-from-hell will forever torture us again as long as he wants. im kind of certain about it. part of me is saying that i should be strong and try not to get affected, whilst part of me is screaming why should i let somebody make me feel like shit every Tuesday? i know i'm not. i want everybody who thinks we are such [speaking in behalf of my partner] to read our thesis and tell it to my face that indeed, we are cliff hangers. i'm confident we are not. but as one of the students who finds complaining fun, i see we've already settled to the idea that we just complain and not to something about the "habitual" scolding. ideally, i would want to do something about it. unfortunately, reality is not so ideal. and i hate it. so enough about the gross story..

anyway,
we've already finished our Performing Arts Musical Excerpt of Chicago, and of course the very clever "adlibs" for monologue. it was kinda fun considering the fact that we've actually experienced time constraints, no excuses mentioned whatsoever.
but it went well :] i guess more than expected.

MM

Lord, please shower me with so much time :]
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when rough times like this knocks on my door, i'd like to shove it with my PLEASE DO NOT DISTURB sign. or perhaps pretend i'm not home.

i hate school.

not hate-hate but damn, i hate it. is it not my forsaken right to like breathe and relax? sob, i am close to forgetting what it feels like to taste my venti chocolate-chip frappe thinking of nothing but where to shop next. it's almost as surreal as when Cady Heron of Mean Girls stopped being home-schooled. pif.

so i decided i will rebel.
i won't do the following:

1. thesis
2. inkcredible publication inc. web layout
3. supplement layout
4. kalika magazine layout
5. flambeau magazine layout
6. chicago dance rehearsals
7. monologue for performing class
8. trein article
9. investigatory report
10. photo essay
11. lesson plan

in my dreams, at least. :[

Worrying is like sitting on a racking chair, it makes you do something but it doesn't get you anywhere.

MOYMOYPALABOY, no space.

after two weeks of hopeful waiting.. the very sudden text from Roadfill of Moymoypalaboy suddenly errupted from my inbox :]
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i was at the grocery store back then [with Mama, Dada and my boyfriend] when my phone beeped and out popped a message:

We might be at 7Pecados,Sofitel tonight. Ok?

shocked, i immediately texted my partners, Sunday and Chaksito ko :] ayun, fortunately, kahit VERY untimely at sudden talaga yung message, we manage to somehow make a plan para maging effective prin yung interview :] so.. i brought my digi cam plus macbook para naman di kami mukang unprepared tapos yung vid cam ko na na kay Chaksito, dinala nya rin :] nagkita kami at 7.45 sa SM Bacoor, took a bus then a cab to Sofitel Philippine Plaza :] basta nakakatawang adventure yun, promise! tipong nasa bus gumagawa ng questions, haha! we arrived there around 9.30 yata?


tapos pinakilala na kami sa Manager then kay Roadfill [padating palang si Moymoy].

Manager: Hi, you're Jel, right?
Dzeli: Yes po, Jeli po.
Manager: Aa, Joli?
Dzeli: *sumagot pako kaso lakas ng music, di nako narinig. haha! Joli, kumusta?!

well at least kilala nya ko. haha! so "nagset-up" na muna kami while waiting for Moymoy.. tapos yung awkward moment yung inaalok kaming kumain tapos todo tanggi kami, haha! tapos interview proper na after dumating ni Moymoy. funn! then pictures na, tas casual na kwentuhan nalang :] maraming trivia. worth it naman yung byahe namin kahit super gabi, malayo at magastos :]





friends na daw kami! *wink.
go edman dorks :]

MS. BRIGHTSIDE ONCE MORE :]

i was suppose to post my thesis-related entry but decided not to be suicidal so fast. i'll do it on my idle times instead.

NOTHING CAN RUIN MY DAY, oh.
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hell yea, i'm gonna interview MOYMOYPALABOY [by next week, i guess]!!

dear.
i've been working on this one for three days now,and i'm happy i got quick results :]] i am so pleased that eventhough i've been having some rough times for like two consecutive weeks now, some part of my oh-dear life is turning out right :] so i was browsing my mail, messenger, youtube, and friendster accounts [all of which i'v used to contact moymoypalaboy] all at once when suddenly..

number confidential :]
YEA! and oh snap, we're texting now :] and as Stewie use to say, Beep. Beep. Cheerio!

ON THE SPOTLIGHT :]

IT was, afterall, not jinxed.
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after much watching of family guy for two consecutive weeks, i finally had a bum break [and should I say a thesis break]. standy by lang muna sa dorm with starla, chaksito ko, after naming kuhanin sa swafo yung id ko [napaka-interesting na story, later.] then we [bitches and boyfriend] went to this event at mall of asia [wherein we were invited by our photojourn professor, ms. teena]. World Press Photo 08. dun na kami nagkita-kita ng other classmates. it was fun being sorta entertained by sir jimmy, one of the greatest photographers. pinakilala din kami kay sir i-forgot-the-name, but he’s popularly affiliated with SM supermalls as he is the official photographer for all SM-related events.
very interesting yung mga photos, yung iba super straight yung pagkaka-capture pero interesting tlga kase kahit still lang, makikita mo yung movements :] cool. afterwhich, official ribbon-cutting na, konting talk about sa event then cocktail party [which hindi naming inatendan ni chaksito ko at beb]. and BTW, “lasallites” pala kami, according kay mr. boelerong photographer, hah! went to MY krispry kreme, brought assorted doughnuts, the hinintay naming sina mars at yanners while nagpo-pose ala-“lasallites” kami ni chaksito ko. tapos we had dinner na sa carver’s :]] yumm. tapos sinundu na kami nila anna, elyse, ghene and rai [the best!] for our ice-skating sessions, wooh! ayun, may a year or so narin since nung last kong skates, kaya kumusta talaga, my muscles are screaming :] funn. tawa kami ng tawa talaga! anyway, ayun, by ten umuwi na kami, funn. nakakatuwa naman at enjoy pati si beb sa company ng mga “lasallites”. Haha!
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the swafo story goes like this…
so mag-o-overnight kami kina rea nung last Thursday kaya bumalik ako sa school ng naka-civilian na, anyway ok lang naman since it’s past six na. around 7pm, may lumapit saking DO [apparently, tinanggal ko yung jacket ko nun kase mainit, naka-sando lang ako sa loob] tapos bonggang-bongga nya kong kinasuhan ng isang tumataginting na violation :] ha! Mejo naloka sina paul at rea nun nung dumating na sila at nakita nilang hinuli pako.

Rea: Bakit anung ngyari
Dzeli: Hinuli nya ko.
Paul: Woy, grabe naman..
Rea: Grabe naman kuya, gabi na nghuhuli pa kayo.
*si kuya DO mejo napikon*
DO: Bakit Ms., hindi naman kami manghuhuli kung wala kayung violation, hindi ba?
Rea: Oo nga po, kaso yung iba namimili.
*di nagsalita si kuya*
Paul: Si kuya parang MIB no? may nakalagay pa sa tenga?

haha, hanep talaga yung segwey ni kuya paul ee. anyway, ayun, kinuha nya prin ID ko. Tapos the next day, nung kinuha kun a, mejo kinakabahan pako.. sya rin yung tao dun sa office, sabi nya lang sakin.

Dzeli: Good morning po!
DO: O, ikaw din ba yung kagabi?
Dzeli: *ngiti* Opo.
DO: Sige, ibabalik ko nalang ID mo ha? Hindi na kita papipirmahin ng violation form.

ha! napakahusay maging babae :] jinked. not.
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PS. im working on my semi-there interview with moymoypalaboy for our EdMan Publication :]

TEN-SECOND TOM.

antagal kong naging sloth, kaya mahaba-haba to. isa pa, masarap mag-type ngayun, anlamig xaka bago top bezel at keyboard area ng mac ku. i love ya, apple care!
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mm.
kakatapos ku lang basahin uli si bridget jones' diary. bum. ngayon, nagha-highlight nako ng mga favorite kong lines :] i so love helen fielding! oh. btw, im suppose to attend a grand dating marathon event at one esplanade tonight, but.. haha.

kwento.. kwento.. kwento nalang anung unang maisip.

tom's my achii's 21st birthday.

Dzeli: Di ka ba kinikilabutan, magte-twenty-one ka na?!
Achii: Ayoko nalang isipin.
Dzeli: Ako kapag magte-twenty nako, magpapakamatay nako.

haha. gustu kung mamatay ng teenager. i am 9-TEEN, thanks :] im planning to buy her a laptop case, may maganda kaming nakita ni beb sa greenbelt. share daw kami sabi ni mama, syempre barat ako?? haha :]

dammit, puh-lease forgive my unorganized thoughts..

err, nakahinga na kami ng onti sa thesis ngayun, i was literally trying to think that apr from hell WON'T get our output just so what'll happen will be the otherwise. di ba nga, may backfiring power akong mukang ewan. and weird tlga pero super proven na yun. pag inisip ko na ganito, yung kabaliktaran ngyayare. duh.

i swear, i won't go to IT's site again, i feel like i'm being infected by IT's wrong grammar syndrome!

so yea, hello tagaytay kami tom :] or batangas. pinagiisipan pa nila mama. shet, ayokong aku naman ag mag-birthday. anlamig, nasan na ba boyfriend ko?

SMITTEN.

hindi kita nakakalimutan.
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THE RELENTLESS PURSUIT OF THE PERFECT WORDS.
Hungry for pizza? Call a cab.



Three years of ups and downs.
And I mean not just in sex. Haha.
Oh yea, what we have is a rollercoaster ride: hella scary and exciting, all at once.
But you know, this carnival we’re in right now, it’s got new thrilling attractions and somehow, we got the must-ride-all ticket.
If I would act completely daunted now, I know those couples who’s already on their fifth year would probably just laugh at me.
Or at US.
Because you’re my better half and we’re on this together.
There’s no turning back, pumpkin.
You should know that pretty well.
Evil grin.

For the nth time, this is making me nostalgic and I am fucking up for cheesy craps.
I’m really no good in enumerating, especially if it’s unprepared, but even if I were, it would take me time to complete a whole Why-Dzeli-is-so-lucky-to-have-you list.
Maybe I should start doing it very soon... it might come handy in the future, eh?

Mm.
I know it’s making you sad not reading any new heartfelt letters from me for quite some time now.
I actually thought I lost the ability to write another one.
You know, considering the amount of time we’ve been “accidentally” apart.
Isn’t that ironic?
LDR is a pain in the ass.
Yet somehow over time, it got easier being apart from you.
But ugh, I hate Spain, tearjerker.
Boo-hoo.
It just got so overwhelming that sometimes I feel like I’ve run out of mushy words.
But hey, I’ve written you so damn many notes way back, haven’t I?
And you must admit I’ve been cupid’s assistant. Haha.
I can hear that heart beat, yum.

So here’s a sentence I might’ve been dying to say:
I swear I’d never flirt again.
Or maybe, I’ll do so much better, you wouldn’t have to know. Haha.
Oh, there’s a sentence I never thought I’d say!
Smirk.
No really, it’s so not me.
And don’t smile, silly, cause I didn’t say that to make you look like the good guy!
Duh.
It happened a looooong time ago but it never hurts bringing it up. Haha.
I know it happened to big be a big deal.
But then, you’ve got your own flaws and I like it.
I mean, I still like you.
Who knows you could’ve hooked up with someone abroad, huh?
Oh you know I can do better. Haha.

Oh.
Remember that overly-saccharine quote?
“True love is proved when a person has seen the best people in the world but still turns back to where you are and chooses you above the world’s best.”
Well, it made perfect sense for me cause I always thought true love is about you being the best but hey there’s more than that.

I’m just happy we made it pass those please-let-it-end trials.
And yes, there’s more to come, hell yea!

So.
Do you still think having my initials as your tattoo COOL,
and me between your legs HOT?
Oh, gotcha.






Ta-ta,
Popeye.

And I love you. Like a real-life fairytale.




PS.
Oh, stop giving me this feeling of wanting to ditch class just so I could get married to you this instant.
For the love of God, I AM GRADUATING!

Oh Mike Wazowski, I am just as romantic as you, I might as well just marry myself.
Bleh.

BACKFIRE.

You're just way out of my league. Fast-paced blah.
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Today was the most unfortunate-yet-amusing day of my week...yet. This might sound really stupid but I completely have this "backfire power" wherein the reverse of whatever I think happens. Ironic. And frustrating. I might as well consider of thinking I'm NOT gonna win the lottery just so I could win one. Oh well, di naman ako tumataya ng lotto. HAHA :] Basta.

Hindi totoong serendipity yun, bil. Mali ang theory.

Teaching Strat Proj's ruining my night. It totally sucks.

REALITY-CHECK.

It's a little funny how you try to impose a new rule on yourself but you later feel the urge to not abide on whatever you've imposed.

I am feeling a little weary for the past few days. It must've been about my relationship with my boyfriend, which have been quite shaky for some indescribable reasons. O alam mu yung alam mo pero di mo mapaliwanag, ganun?
Or I'm just plain weary.
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Naglakwatsa kami ni be right after Ed Man class. Went to Greenbelt to have my Macbook's lense cleaned at the Apple Center tapos headed to G2, Pancake House. Around 8.30 na kami nakauwi, waited for Achii, kase bibisita sya sa dorm tapos ayun around 1am na yata kami nakatulog kakakwentuhan :]
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Si Chaksito ko yung kumukuha nyan.

Last Saturday, we had our first session of the very untimely English Proficiency Program. Not that we're not in good command of the English language, but all the same, we're relearning English. It was quite a long session, pero nagulat talaga kami nila Chaksito ko nung around 3pm palang, pinalabas na kami, haha! Ayun, afternun nag-chill lang kami sa 7/11 nila Mars at Chaksito ko. Umuwi na sina Bil at Yanners.. Nag-laughtrip lang kami sa mga lollipop experience namin :] After an hour, hinatid na namin si Mars sa sakayan, mejo masama kase pakiramdam nya.. Kami naman ni Chaksito ko ai pumuntang Fujifilm kung saan napakamura ng mga film, haha :] Go, buy!

Beb and I met there, bowling session.


Improving na kaya ko, naka-dalawang strike ako! haha :] Yung iba kase laging may dalwang pin o tatlo na natitira :[[ It was our favorite bonding time, hee :] Afterwhich, we bought clothes tapos had dinner at Mcdo kase we're craving for Mcfloats, haha! Patch things, bandaid theory!
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Nakakapikon ang Elasticity Theory. I hate it, ugh. Tama ka, reality-check talaga. Hmm. Ayuko na ng awkward moments, bby. Good luck naman.

PS. Ansaya mag-simba sa Church of God :]

LADY OF THRONE

Whatever.
I forgot what Chax called me the other day. It was like a royal label and I liked it. Ironically, I forgot it.
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From this moment on, I will start to relive again the right way of writing. Be it SMS or real writing.

I missed Performing Arts last Monday and I'm feeling kinda frustrated because [insert my Bitches' reason here]. Ugh, I forgot what to write.

BRR.

i am sick.
totally sick.
i am a puking sick.
totally gross.

just hug me, will ya?

AM NOOKY :]

we love chocolate pancakes :]
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may sakit si beb. may sakit narin yata ako. si chuo magkakasakit narin. grabe, ang weird talaga ng panahon, ugh. so, bummer lang ako for the past two days, FRIENDS. disc 52 nako, ilan nalang ba til disc 78? HAHA :] that was quite an achievement. pagtpos nako sa FRIENDS, sana di na makalimutan sa monday ni chaksito ko ung pushing daisies at be kind rewind. hee, excited nako :] oo na, nagpaparinig ako sayo, bitch ka!

mm.
so kahapon my dalawa kong major achievement:

1. yung mala-performing arts drama ko na ngyari sa may JFH stairs, kasama ku si chaksito ku,
at
2. yung GA hosting.




masaya naman pareho, haha :]

ayun lang, after ng GA, nagpatay lang kami lalo ng oras ni chaksito ko sa 7/11, kumain kami at nag-share sa jungle juice :] yum. kwentuhan lang kami ng masaya tapos inuwian ko si bebii KO ng yogurt-flavored chupa chups na inintroduce sakin ni chaksito ko, nagustuhan naman nya, ansarap daw :]]

ayun, sige. gagawa muna ko ng homework. HAHA :] shit, may sakit ako.

EWW.

maggots have been lurking all over my page.
kala ko tinanggal nako ng blogger, abandoned account daw.
HAHA.
--
so maraming nangyare, yum. panu ku ba simulan? err. ayun saturdays and sunday nasa QC kami uli, bonding with carlie, super namiss ko mga luto nya. at sya, syempre. tapos..

first week na namiss ko:

MONDAY
na-miss ko ang Performing Arts class dahil nagkasakit ako, nahawa ako sa sipon ni beb.

TUESDAY
nagmamadali ako akala ko 8.30 class, yun pala 10 pa, bongga. andaldal ng prof sa IJ, nakakatawa. kase naman, he's a gay. not a gay. bakit sya madaldal?? ayoko ng lalakeng madaldal. sa COM RES, weird. nag-limbo rack kami. pinagalitan ko si bil kase na-LSS xa dun sa pinatugtog ni sir, pagalis nila ng dorm, pati pala ko na-LSS, pinagalitan ako ni beb.

WEDNESDAY
nothing much on school. nag-movie date kami ni beb, lunch date sa tokyo-tokyo then, grocery. kungfu panda, yea :]

THURSDAY
di nakita ni ma'am saulo yung portfolio ko. pero astig nung kay drew, grabe :]

FRIDAY
ok naman ed man. went to QC right after. ai tinanong nga pala ko nila pol kung pwede ako mag-host sa GA sa 27, friday, ok lang naman :] sana wag aku mabulol kase naman nung high school lang ako forever hosting sa school pero tagal na nun, hell-O?!

WEEKEND
nag-bonding lang kami nila carlie forever.

HIGHLIGHT OF THE WEEK: adik nako sa FRIENDS. yea, old school much ako ngayon :]] ganda ng screenplay at ang cute ni phoebe, haha :]]

this week:

MONDAY
err. bagyo ee.

TUESDAY
nakkatwa mga pangyaayri sa COM RES. jusko thesis :]
monthsary namin, ahanswit ng letter sakin ni beb, naiyak akong malupit. snap, tagal na pala natin, ayuko mag-flashback, abutin ako ng maghapon neto.. <3
nakuha ku narin yung program ng GA.

WEDNESDAY
andaming froshies, nakakatwa kapag pinagmamasdan namin nila chax yung mga porma nila. halatang first year, parang laging CATWALK LA SALLE. haha :] umuwi kami after ng teaching strat, oh btw, hail to wewei for bitching our prof :]] wohoo. hilarious tlga ee. yung tipong gustu nyang ipahiya si wewei pero tables turned tlga, patawa. pamatay oras pa, we should do that some more. marami naring na-formulate na theories kami-kaming bitches tungkol sa prof na itu, ginisa namin sa dorm, amusing :] 1pm, consultation with sir gochi, nakakatwa kase:

Sir Gochi: O, walang tanong na Showbiz ha..
Dzeli: OK, sir.
*Dzeli binuksan ang laptop, Sir nakita ang wallpaper namin ni beb*
Sir Gochi: WOOOOOAAAH, you belong??????
Dzeli: Na-uh-uh, walang tanong na showbiz!!

HAHA. basta nakakaaliw lang amuse na amuse si sir ee, hanggang paglabas ng faculty my hang-over pa ee. ayun, tapos bonding lang kami nila chax at bil habang hintay si yanners, si mars invited sila sa GA ng engineering ba yun, nakakainis, di kami nakapanuod. ai etu ang highlight: PUTANGINA, MY WIFI SA DORM KOOOOO, FREEEEEEEE!!!

I LIKE INVENTED HOTT.

WARNING:
this is a fucking hate entry.
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so i started the day early because i promised bil we would jog together around the village by 6am. apparently, it helped release so much endorphine on me that i am feeling quite happy the entire day [though i was pretty annoyed of wearing the damn uniform which has this collar that sticks round your neck when it’s so hott, eww.] we hurried to school around 7.45, we were early birds, too early for the photo journ class.
photo journ class was okay, ms saulo’s nice :] hurried to dorm right after because we’re freakin’ sleepy, me, bil, and yanners. chaksito and mars went off to mars’ rehearsal for chorale, ahem. we planned to meet at TJF by 2pm for this thesis guidelines thing.

AND THIS IS WHERE THE HATE COMES IN..

YOU JERK. I WAS TOTALLY LAUGHING MY ASS OFF ON HOW POORLY YOU MAKE THAT DECISION!? OYEA, I KNOW I SHOULDN’T MIND BECAUSE IT WILL ONLY SATISFY YOU HOW AFFECTED I APPEAR, BUT I DON’T FUCKING CARE. YOU AND YOUR INFLATED EGO COULD ROT TOGETHER ON YOUR PERVERTED HELL. WHY, YOU THINK YOU’RE HOTT? NOT. SNAP.
and hey, reality-check, you.are.so.not.chuck.bass. you got that?!
please do me favor and don’t think i like you just because i asked. not even close.

you’re suppose to say yes, stupid.

SUDDENLY, WE'RE CHINESE :]

oh well.
i have not been lurking on the tech-ish side of our world for the past week purely because i have been, well, taking a great vacation with my perfect boyfriend at hong kong.
it has been so overwhelming that i can barely discuss it here.. so, why don't you just drop by my dorm so i can basically make kwento or visit my multiply account just so you could have a glimpse of our daily activities there last week, i mean pictures.
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damn, hong kong is like an ultimately big shopping mall. i particularly like their fashion. i actually spent lots and lots of dollars with those, and i don't regret it, haha :] street foods are oh-well-yummy. and those dimsum and sushi won't ever escape my choosy taste buds. great, i will truly miss those.
and our hotel.
and the space museum.
and the avenue of stars.
and nathan road.
and panash.
and the red cabs.
and the MTR.
and the ocean park.
and the disneyland.
and the auditoria.
and starbucks.
and saga mall.
and pioneer mall.
and kowloon park.
and..
oh snap, they're too plenty to mention :]
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im happy i got beb back. it has been four long months of extreme long-distance torture. it was never good. but any mile would be good enough for me than to settle not having her. that would mean a lifetime agony of NOT waiting.
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so june 9, we arrived at NAIA around 12.45am, i never thought i'd miss philippines. took a cab to my dorm, saw mama, dada, and chuo [which i asked to stay at my dorm that night], then we saw something else.



it. was. amazing.
apparently, my bitches: YAN, MARS, BIL, and CHAKSITO organized a supposedly surprise welcome back party for us, had the room decorated, and cooked carbonara. who would do that for a friend????? i may say i got the bestest best friends i could ever have. walang halong bola. really, we we're super happy. frolic. suddenly, it was the yummiest carbonara we ever had :]]
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BACK TO SCHOOL.
bil was basically harassing me to join her jog. i was close to saying yes but the thing that's keeping me was the fact that she wants to work out at 5 in the fucking AM!? so yea, she just came rushing at my door, 6.45am. had a shower, prepared a little then we went to school together :]
seeing mars, chaksito and yanners again was funn. being with the whole block was fine. but that first lesson completely sucked. i am proud to say i am the perfect example of this BANTAY SA ORAS GANG. bleh :]
talked to sir gochuico right after class, thesis. met a new friend, polli :] nice. had halo-halo at chowking. went to my place with amiel, wei and yanners :] had lunch with beb, went to mama's to see esha, my new neice :]
OMG, she's a pretty baby.
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beb's going to QC tom :[

mapapraning ako kapag hindi ito ang pinost ko.

ugh, may hang-over parin ako ng fun talkk namin nila paul kahapon, literal na yun na naman ang pinaguusapan namin ni yanners, since morning. the good thing about us though, is the fact that we can talk about same old topic over and over but still make it seem so damn interesting :]
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woke up 9am, shower then went to western union. nakapagpa-book nako!!!!!!!
OMG.
OMG.
OMG.
my triple letter score.
hello, sweet desperation!
went to robinsons imus right after to claim boyfriend's return ticket, syempre same flight kami :] oh gaaaad, everything went great. i was kinda paranoid pa nga kanina, like feeling ko:

a. maho-hold up ako
b. mananakaw yung passport ko
c. mapupunit yung ticket ko
d. all of the above

thankfully, nagawa ko yung letter e. none of the above :]
jusko ayuko nalang imaginine kung mangyari man isa jan. ok, sige na-imagine ku na nga, iiyak ako shitt. mapapariwara an buhay ko. HAHA :] kidding.

around 2.30pm, nagtext na skin si beb, nasa madrid na daw xa.. yun ang first stop over nya. second stop over nya sa helsinki. andaya no? kung susumahin ko, andami ng napuntahang lugar ni sarra, nakakapikon. HAHA :] bakit ba kase yung mga two-hour flights walang stop over? jusko, nakakapraning kung meron.

Sarra: Alam mu bii, kung walang mga stop over, adali naman akung makakarating sayu ee.
Dzeli: Oo nga dad ee.
Sarra: Alam mu ba kung bakit may mga stop over?
Dzeli: Oo naman no!
Sarra: O, bakit pala??
Dzeli: Syempre, kawawa naman yung eroplano!!
Sarra: Huh?! Yung tao ang kawawa! Nu ka ba naman, bii.

haha. pag naaalala ko kung gaano ko kaseryoso sa sagot ko sa tanung ni beb natatawa talaga ko. HAHA :]] 8am flight ko tom, shitt. ang aga. hindi lang ako ang nagreklamo, pati sina yanners at wei. tagal magreply nila chaksito ko at mars ee, di ko alam kung sasama sila maghatid, hopefully oo :] so sharp 4am, dpat sunduin nako ni mama sa dorm. 5am or 3hours earlier than the flight dapat nasa NAIA nako kase, groggy na siguro ku nito. grabe habang tinatype ku to, parang lalabas sa rib cage ko yung heart ko. kumusta naman yun?! BE STILL HAPPY HEART! ok, 10am nasa HK nako, so about 2hours and 30mins maghihintay sakin si beb, 7.30 kase xa magla-land sa HK :]
teka,
pamura lang di ku na talaga kaya!
PUTANGINA MAKIKITA KU NA BOYFRIEND KOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!
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teka hahanda ku na uli maleta ko. magkikita pa kami ngayun ni tita julie, may kukunin lang xa na top, papahiram ku kay yanners for this event sa ABS, must ang aming gorgeous bestfriend.
oha.

INSERT SMILEY

i was suppose to post something serious tonight but i guess life being randomly exhilarating made me do the otherwise.
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HAPPY MONDAY, June 2.

what's with monday, anyway? i know for a fact that i am ALWAYS never looking forward to mondays since, for a student like me, it only means being back to class. mondays are no good. but ok, best friends always make it bearable. that's like a given.
it was not really a quote-unquote, happy monday. me and yanners call it that cause it's some-MONDAY that doesn't go everyone's week. well, as far as we know, alright.

so. i had an imaginary friend, a shadow, could be. i'll leave to your imagination what could've happened that monday. hence, it was.. yea, a so-so imaginary.


YOU'RE WELCOME. I KNOW, IM SUCH A GOOD, UGH, FRIEND.
"The question that sometimes drives me hazy: Am I, or the others crazy?"

altogether, i want this crappy entry to be, well, sensible, so i will write down everything i've learned. be it ridiculous. or just non-sense. it's my page, you jerk!

LEARNING #1
Cliche as it may sound, but Filipinos are hospitable. Yes, in fact they will even invite you to stay for no apparent reason. Or maybe there is, but you're not allowed to know. yet.

LEARNING #2
Once a perv, oh yea you got it right, always NOT a perv when in front of an endearing crowd. you know what they say about multiple personalty disorder, eh?

LEARNING #3
Never, i repeat, NEVER accept give-away condoms from a MAXIM HOT 100 PARTY. Are you not alarmed? What the heck are they thinking?? Giving you that?! It's like a euphemism that you're a less hott virgin of them, right? Ok, stop talking, you're making it obvious.

LEARNING #4
Some people, especially those with names beginning with A, M, J, or S are particularly pushy. Get ready.

LEARNING #5
Control over will. Believe me, it works.

LEARNING #6
Karmic Law doesn't always work for me. Too bad, it usually works on you.
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i have been re-routed to the page of dzeli, the doomed.

see, tomorrow, June 4, is my boyfriend's flight from Spain to Hongkong. i know, right,?! im suppose to be fuckingly excited about it. and i am. really. but the thing is, i am kinda freaking out right now cause i haven't booked for my flight yet. this whole booking-a-flight thing has gotten into my nerves that it made my whole system out of order. i am bickering the entire day. well, except for the few hasty afternoon hours when my bitches came with paul. amiel, that is. it made everything kinda consoling, thanks for all the fun talk. it made my day :]

*talking about some hott-in-here stuff, no it's not green*
Wei: Good excuse to like show some skin?
Yan: Yea, kanina super hott, i was like, ugh.. Tinataas ku na partial yung shirt ko.
Dze: Ooh. 50% because of the heat, and what about the other 50?
Paul: HAHA. Alam mo magkakasundu tayo!
Dze: Yea, I know, right?! HAHA.

OMG. i can't believe chaksito, our queen bee wasn't there. even mars' missing in action, boo-hoo, you bitches. IKAW NA CHAX ANG NA-STUCK SA SM BACOOR! i love you na nga, sigi.
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7.30, we left my dorm. went to SM dasma to finally book a flight but daaaamnit, they're offline! good luck, wednesday. feed me yogurt, sugar.

STRAWBERRY YOGURT

i wasnt feeling well yesterday.. i was totally sick-ish for not having ANY meal for almost two days. i swear, i will never let that happen again, dreadful feeling. thanks to the royalty, di nila ko iniwan kahit through SMS lang :]
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i turned the lights off and browsed my iPhoto last night. i was kinda suffering from nostalgia so i started browsing several old albums. i bumped into this Gawad Liberal album and started clicking NEXT. and since i am feeling quite nocturnal, i edited one of my CPC pics :] just this instance that i clicked "DONE", a terrible thing happened and i was horribly shocked..

SO HINDI TALAGA KO FAN NG SUPERSTITIONS.
but my friend, paul, literal.. wala talaga syang ulo sa pic. so naisip ko namalik-mata lang ako, so click ko uli yung NEXT. tapos BACK. tapos ganun parin, wala prin :x ayun, kinabahan nako super at tinext ku na sya.. i mean, it wouldn't hurt to follow taboos, right? ayun, so mejo panic mode naman si hotsexx [ahem] at tumawag sya agad skin.. actually, panic mode din ako kase first time ko naka-encounter ng ganun ee :[
kaya ayun. sabi ko, be cautious nalang..
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12 na yata ko nagising today. went to SM dasma, withdraw ng allowance. grocery. bought clothes. bili ng choco roll cake at ng yummy KFC snack bowl. around six, nagkita kami ni achii ko, Bnigay ku lang allowance nya, kontting kwentuhan ta hinatid ku na sya sa bus stop. sa bulacan naman ngayun duty nya :]
--
nanggaling pala kong travel agency kanina, baka sa tues nako bumili ng ticket, thurs na kase dapat flight ko :] shitt, excited nako makita boyfriend KO, HAHA! :]]

MAKE THAT ENGINE PURR

bummer ako for the last two days kaya di nako nag-blog. haha :] yesterday, total bummer din ako, until yan, my hott stuff, texted me, inviting me sa MAXIM HOT 100 PARTY :] alam kase nyang wala akung kahirap-hirap yayain. haha :] so went to makati, took a cab from ayala ave at ng makita ko na ang A.Venue, isang WOW na frenzy balloon ang sumalubon skin at ang yummy ko na hott stuff. ayun, pinakilala lang muna ko ni yan sa boss nya then pila, then ayun ok na, VIP PASS, orayt! super daming tao, like really madami.

ayun, watch watch lang kmi til 11pm nung lumabas na si angel, infairness, ang pretty nya pala in person :] at humble xa na pa-sweet compared kay RR na super tease
lang ang ginawa sa stage. haha :] pero hott, i must say. after angel, lumabas na kami and so are the other folks.
nagpicturan nalng kami sa photowall with ms jen at sir john, na super cool boss ni hott stuff!


pauwi hinatid lang kami ng convoy ng ABS sa my highway then took a bus to yanner's house sa my pasay :] grabe super anun oras na kaming nakatulog kafo-formulate ng kung anu-anong theory at plano. HAHA :] i love you, my bitch.
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woke up 7am, had breakfast, umalis na kami ng 8am then ayun, partways sa my coastal, bummer lang aku uli sa bahay. edit ng photos, slep til 5pm, haha :] then talked to beb.

QUICKIE

and just like the USUAL quickie, it turned out: we're both bitin.

ugh, scratch that corrupted mind of whoever you are :] i meant with our gossip girl much much, me and bil.
--
gumising ako 10am, had a quick breakfast, nag mama a little bit tungkol sa maleta ko then went back sa dorm.. may usapan kasi kami ni bil na visit sya dorm so we could watch gossip girl together again. see, yung series ko kase is like kulang ng 8 episodes, thanks to queen chaksito ko. ayun so pinanuod namin yung last 8 episodes left :] grabe talagang buong araw yun lang ginawa namin, haha :] ibang klase tlga kapag with bitches manuod ng GG :] bliss. super basta, MASAYA!

so bakit sya nging 'quickie'?
kase naman, yung last episode ko, sa sobrang excitement ko, D ku na natapos maDL, so 10mins lang yung napanuod namin, nakakatawa. inis na inis kami na natatawa! haha. ayun, super gawa na kami ng conclusions, it was funn.

hinatid ku na si bil, past 6. at inuulit ku uli ang GG :]]
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bubuu texted na pala na pinahanap nya nako ngticket sa barcelo earlier. im excited na but i dunn wanna think about it muna. 10 more days :]

GREEN

once again, a knock on my door woke me up from a lovely dream. ugh.
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around 9am yata nung dumating si achii sa dorm. grabe, super antok pako, nag-ayus lang ako konti, di nako naligo tapos direcho na kami kay mama :] bummer lang ako magdamag. nagharutan lang kami ni chuo habang hinhintay kong magising si beb para makapgusap na kami. 5pm na yata sya nagising, annoying :x

talked to papa earlier, nangamusta lang sya. ayun, it's nice to hear his voice once in a while :]]
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gossip girl much nalang ako uli today plus sorting yung places na pupuntahan sa HK. ticket ko nalang kulang pala at ok na lahat :] naunahan pako ni beb magkaticket, akalain mu yun?? excited nakong magkita kami sa airport. oh holy crap, magkaaway nga pala kmi ngayun dahil sa isang tamang selos. jusko.

BLIND ITEM:
si girl na-hottan sa guy friend ni guy one. so sabi nya kay guy one, "ang hot naman ni your guy friend! tell me, he's hott, di ba?" tapos itung si guy one ang sagot lang kay girla isang malutong na "No Comment". question na malupit, nagselos ba tung si guy one [kase tlga namang hott si guy friend]? o assuming lang si girl? haha :]]

ayun lang :]
xoxo.

LIFE BEGINS AT 40.

and so they say. is it true, anyway?
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tita julie turned 44 yesterday, but she decided to celebrate it today :] ininvite ni yanners ang bitches kaso kami lang ni wewei ang pwede. [HUMANDA KA TALAGA CHAKSITO, INUNA MU PA YANG REUNION MO HA, SIGE. HAHA :]] so ginising ako ni wewei at past 10 yata yun. i so hate her kase super ganda ng panaginip ko but when she knocked, it faded so fast. I CAN'T GET IT BACK!! haha, nakakafrustrate tlga, i so love my dream :[ so naligo muna ko while i leave bil reading COSMO tapos fix, fix then off we go to yanners place. annoying tlga mga driver kase super sugapa sa pamasahe, i hate price hikes. i mean, who doesn't? tapos pagdating namin dun, kwentuhan lang onti tas inupakan na namin yung mangga. tinitease nya kase ko ee. i mean, ng mangga. haha :] after nun, hinanda na namin yung table tapos binugaw namin yung mga pathetic na langaw. HAHA :] after a while dumating na yung ibang bisita ni tita julie tapos nag-lunch na kami together, xempre prayer muna tapos the traditional HAPPY BDAY blah-blah. naka-take three ako, major pig out tlga, funny. tapos nagkwentuhan lang kami ng mga naughty deets naming bitches at hella fun tlga tapos kumain na naman kame, haha. basta every break, kain. tapos naglakad kami sa golden, punta clubhouse tapos kwentuhan kami uli. forever kwentuhan :] after an hour siguro bumalik na kami sa bahay nila yanners tapos ngkwentuhan uli kami with tita julie naman! xempre chinika namin kay tita yung mga namiss nyang deets, haha :] major kwentuhan tlga. tapos kumain na naman kame, jusme. around 5 umuwi na kame :]

WE LOVE YOU, TITA JULIE :]]

i love you, my bitches.
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natuwa talaga ko ke beb ee. kilala ku na talaga yung gagong yun. ee di monthsary namin ngayun. 37th 24. ayun, di ko sya binati nung 12 midnight last night ee, tas di nya rin ako binati. iniisip nya siguro nakalimutan ko, pero di naman tlga. haha :] nagpapa-kiyut lang ako. tas nung gabi na ng 24, ee di after nya sa work, nararamdaman ku na tlga natatawag yung panget na yun ee. anggaling ku tlga, biglang nag-ring phone ko :]] mahal na mahal talaga kita.

Dzeli: O bakit ka tumawag ha, may sasabihin ka ba?
Sarra: Ha? Ikaw..
Dzeli: Eee, may sasabihin ka ee!
Sarra: Alin? na happy 24?

anlandi ee. i love you. oo na, malapit na tayo magkita, yummy.

THINKEN.

nahanap ku na passport ko! wahaha.
I AM SO GOING TO HONG KONGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!! haha :]
see you very soon, disneyland!
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nagkita lang kami ni bil ngayun, bored kase sya kaya nag-hang out lang kami sa dorm tom. cheap thrill lang kase kanina pareho kaming broke, pero masaya kami. oo, nabubuhay ang tao ng pagibig lang, oha :]] nag tuna canton kami uli, big bang, at champola. sayang wala ang ibang bitches :[ di kumpleto ang royalty. haha :] iniis pa namin si yanners sa text sabi namin bading si David Cook [crush namin xa], sabi nya "WEH?" haha. kapag tlga may gustu ka sa isang tao, yung gustu mu lang marinig ang pakikinggan mo no? tapos kapag ayaw mo, fini-filter mu lang yung paniniwalaan mo. ang coolness. hanep na pagibig. so ayun, around 1 na siguro dumating si bil, tapos 6pm na sya umuwi. hanep talaga, kapag kami magkasama di kami nauubusan ng pinaguuspan, nakakaaliw. loves it!

salamat sa maleta, bil. thanks for saving me the trouble of going to imus :] tinatamad tlga kong kunin maleta ku dun. pero mukang kukunin ko rin dahil maliit yung pinahiram mo, hehe :]
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24 na bukas. o-yay!

DESPERATELY SEEKING D

nawawala passport ko. di ko makita. di ko matandaan san ko tinago. oha. masyado nakong kinakabahan :[ sabi ko na nga ba may masamang mangyayare kase naging masaya ko nitong mga nkaraang araw ee. tas kahapon pa nagkasama-sama kami uli nila yanners, sobrang saya namin. ai pucha.
bright side muna ko.
IM MS. BRIGHTSIDE nga pala.
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so ayun, dapat magkikita kami nila bil sa school kahapon kaso kase super lakas ng ulan, na-stuck ako sa dorm. kasma ko si mama, binago uli namin ayos ng kwarto ko :3 ayun. maganda naman.
lunch time dumating si bil, may ngyari daw kase sa school at kwinento nya skin yun. basta. tapos after mga 1 hour siguro, dumating na sila yanners at chaksito ko. kala ko makukumpleto na kami kahapon, kaso wala si mars :x ayun nagkwentuhan kami maghapon kasama namin si mama, nkkapraning. tapos nung umuwi na sila mama, iba naman pinagkaabalahan namin. mejo masakit ulo ni chaksito kaya pinipilit nyang matulog kahit gustu nya talagang panuorin yung paggawa namin ng mga music video nila yanners, NYAHAHA :]]

actually, marami to, pero to lang ilalagay kong link ha, baka sabihin nyo masyadong bad influence pagbabarkadahan namin ee, haha:



i love you, my bitches. ikaw mars, kapag balik mo sa dorm, dat may solo vid ka! haha :]]
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nagkita nga pala kami ni kuya kiko sa BK knina, ayun Bnigyan nya ko ng lollipop. sarrap :] salamat, kuya.
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sana mahanap ko passport ko paguwi, papatulong ako ke mama.

THE BLAIR BITCH PROJECT

Spotted. Not-so-lonely boy finally going home. Now this could be so classic! Send me the deets. And who am I? That's one secret I'll never tell. The only one. You know you love me!
Xoxo, Gossip Girl.

naalala ko lang dahil sa gossip girl infection ko, nagtrip kami nun nila chax ee..

Dzeli: ee di pano yan, si mars na si K. *tawa si mars* Ikaw [turo kay chaksito], ikaw na si C!
Chax: ee pano si wewei, anghaba! W?!
*lahat kame tumawa*
Weizel: hindi kaya, C nako! Christine, di ba?!
Dzeli: ee pano si chax, di pareho na kayo?? C rin xa ee! teka panu ko?
Weizel: ee di D!
Dzeli: D ba? o J??

haha. nakakatawa ee. so anu kaya? sige, D nalang ako kase si jenny humphrey na si J ee, haha :] oh great, i so love gossip girl. kabisado ko na script nila sa sobrang 12 times ko na yata syang napapanuod? o 16?? lalala :]]

nagtext sakin si wewei sabi nya:
"sil, i so love blair but her clothes wont fit me."
sabi ko sknya:
"bil, im so laughing. we're of the same body type, sorry. haha!"

kinabukasan:

Weizel: basta im Blair. you're Serena. im B, you're S.
Dzeli: ugh, no! i dont like S, im B!!
Weizel: anu ka ba, im BILLY, remember? you're SILLY. kaya im B and you're S!!
Dzeli: bakit, kasya ba sayo damit ni Blair? haha.
Weizel: o, bakit sinu bang kulot?
Dzeli: di naman natural curls yung kay Blair ee.
Karen and Chax: o sige na, kayu na si S at B!
*tawanan kaming lahat*

wala lang, sarap alalahanin.
ito yung isa sa maraming pagkakataon na pang-series na tlga yung buhay naming magbabarkada ee, sabi nga ni bil "nako, i think our lives should be one of those series na ee, anggaling kase, we have different personalities tlga!" coolness. tama naman, papayaman muna ko. gagawin naming series to tapos to be shown internationally. bongga.

oh well, masaya lang ako ngayun. sabayan ka pa nitong happy working song ni giselle sa the enchanted?! panu kang di magiging high? loves it! may 20 na, yohoo :]] ngayun lang ako naging masaya na magju-june na, napaka-ironic. haha :]

Mama: [nung akala nya uuwi na si beb] dalwang tulog nalang uuwi na si sarra beb!!
Dada: talaga ba?? dalawang tulog nalang?? ee di kapag pumikit ako, ma, tas dumilat ako uli tas pumikit ako, pagkadilat ko andito na si dadii sarra beb??

si dada yung pamangkin kong 4yrs old. may crush sya kay sarra. super, you should see. kinikilig yan banggitin mu lang pangalan ni beb, nakakatawa. feeling nya kung hindi kami, sya ang girlfriend ni sarra. ganun sya ka-adik.

bbye na muna :]

BAKED TAHONG :]

pakiramdam ko, mabudburan ako ng cheese ngayun. haha :] ansarap ko.
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bati na kami ng immature na kaaway ko. grabe ang masasabi ku lang, you bring me high hopes. a fine frenzy :] antagal mo sa YM, pero ok lang. konting tiis nalang naman at di na natin kelangan nitong YM nato. o ng skype. o ng iCHAT. i love you.

CHAKSITO KO,
biatch, salamat kagabi. nakakangiti nako uli :]
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so ngayung araw na to, nagaral ako ng mga bagong recipe. my dalawa nakong bagong natutunan: caldereta at baked tahong, yummy. care of mama, o-yay! naghahanda kase ku para sa paguwi ni beb. well, actually, sa paguwi NAMIN ni beb. we had this plan on going to melbourne, australia kase by june 3 sana kaso di pala aabot ang aking visa dahil according to my reliable source, hotsexx aka reamel abella, more likely 2-3weeks ang processing. tinanong ku rin ang ex ni achii dahil nasa sydney sya ngayun at tama nga, 2-3 weeks daw. so buh-bye, melbourne. :[[ balik kami sa dating plano.. HK. masaya naman din ako kase old plan na namin to. relive. this time, hello disneyland na :]
dapat didirecho kaming macau after, but since ang rsume ng klase ai june 9, hindi na magiging fun yun. sa next trip nalang.

bale ako ai excited na aalis magisa papuntang hongkong sa june 3 at magkikita nalang kami ni beb sa airport, direcho sa aming hotel. excited nako. hopefully everything goes according to plan :]]

praying parin akong matuloy kami sa melbourne by sem break or christmas break or fourth anniv :D
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ambangu ni chuo.. naiwan ko sa apartment yung cardinal shampoo nya kaya nag-sunsilk sya kanina, oha! inspired by ms marimar, haha :] ayun, maghapon sya kama. antaba talaga ni eboy, nakakainis.
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may date kami nila bil at yanners sa wed. at mago-ON AIR kami sa LS Radio. pwde ba mag-bitch talk dun? haha.
mis na mis ko na si yanners, tagal na namin syang di nakakasama.

YOU SING ME SPANISH LULLABYES

wala ko sa mood magsulat.
i feel like my heart is going through a paper shredder :[[
you're the ticket to my emotional rollercoaster.

NOT A PORNSTARR.

ive had another encounter with an exhibitionist yesterday.
ANU BANG MERUN AKO?? i was wearing a tee and a capri pants, what's wrong with that?! jusko, andami na tlgang manyak sa mundo.
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i was a bum yesterday. i decorated my room, it was fab. promise, you should see it :] nakalimutan ko yung pic so later ko na upload. im so tamad and that's so conyo. haha :]] tapos went to the mall kase nga naisipan kong mag-grocery dahil nga wala ng laman ref ko at ayoko ng ganun dahil may alaga akong sawa, so ayun. nasa jeep nako nung nakita ko na naman ang isang kahina-hinalang tingin ng isang mama na naka-jersey shorts, definitely hindi sya disenteng suot para pumunta sa mall [judgemental?? no.] at kinutuban nako. nakakatwa pa dahil yung katabi ko ang una kong pinaghinalaan na perv yun pala yung katabi ng katapat ko ang perv. grabe, alarming na talga to. :[ i am so freaking out. sabi ko nga kina mars at chax, kung my sini-secrete ang girls para maka-attract ng exhibitionist, malamang marami ako nun. sagana. i hate it.

aa basta, maganda room namin ni sarra.
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WE ARE NOW OFFICIALLY SENIORS.
di ako makapaniwala, ang bilis. parang kelan lang takot pako sa mga higad sa puno sa la salle, tapos ngayun kiber nalng. nakakatawa na ngayon, malakas na loob naming mang-bully ng froshies, hell-O. haha :]
maganda naman sched namin maliban sa isang 7am ang pasok. every friday yata yun. ack. kaya naka-formulate na ng plano si chaksito ko. sakin daw sya matutulog tuwing thurs. ayun, bonggang-bongga to sigurado! after namin mag-enroll, pumunta na kami CAD uli kase sabay-sabay kami kakan nila bil, ee nandun xa kaya gumoers na kami JFH. natawa ko ke mars, kase ang landi ee, sabi banaman "hala, aku kaya kanino makikitulog ng thursday?" landi no? saB ko, aba di kanino pa, de skin, jusko naman. haha :] tas natawa kaming tatlo. haha :]
had lunch dapat sa fiat kaso tamad ni bil maglakad, nag-SBC kme. may awkward na ngyare.
ESP.
basta nakakatawa tlga. dumirecho na kami dorm ko after. nag-kwentuhan, gossip girl much at nagpantasya. ayun, after an hour umalis narin si bil kase si tita cecile magkikita sila.. sina mars at chax ng-stay. nagluto kami ng tuna canton, yummy :] sarrap tlga. tas nanuod kami ng john tucker must die kahit kabisado ku na Un, kelangan ku kase ipakita ke chaksito ko si DAN HUMPHREY kapag long hair. shitt, gwapo. haha :] ayun, pinahiram nako ng season one ni chaksito ko ng criminal minds, papanuorin ku na yung kai reid mamaya. :]] si mars naman, pinahram ku na ng mahal na mahal kong gossip girl :] wee, pagkekwentuhan na namin sina nate at chuck at blair at serena bukas! haha :]
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i wish this time you won't fail me.

MOTHER's DAY :]

had a lunch date with mama and achii plus dada at max's :] grabe full na full talaga kame, we can hardly walk. haha :] it was fun. sa sobrang busy kase tlaga naming magkapatid, kahit close kami nila mama, minsan nalang kami makalabas, mas madalas bonding sa bahay lang, so this meant a lot to me. to us :] ang initial plan tlga mag-pa-pamper day kame, pero ayun, nauwi kami sa matinding chibog. nakakatuwa nga, super di tlga napigilan nung waiter yung ngiti nya nung umoorder kame.. tipong "whoa. katawang babae, chan ng lalake?!" haha.

after nun, nag-videoke kame. manunuod sana kami movie, kaso nainip kami sa shedule, hindi sumangayaon samin kaya ayun :]


ayun..
mama, we love you. we'll get through everything, we know that :]
YOU ROCK.

dapat right after the lunch date magkikita kami ni bil sa qc, my wedding kase tita nya, she's invitin me.. ayun, since late na kami natapos, di nako nakapunta kay wewei ku :[ i so miss her.
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MONDAY.

i woke up very early. appointment sa dentist, kinabit na ang lower brackets ko. ok naman xa, i guess. at Bnigyan nako ng inter-dental kit. OMG, i badly need it :]] tapos nagkita kami ni beszpat aka gerrick sa quezon ave mrt station, plano naming magpakasaya sa trinoma kase anlalakas ng ulan, sa shang nalang kmi then sa megamall :] had krispy kreme tapos punta sa kung anu-anung store tapos hinamon ku na xa sa dance revo, haha! fun fun :] ayun, masaya tlga kmi :]


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bati na yata kami ni sarra. nakakinis. haha :]

CHOKING ON YOUR ALIBIS

BIL.

i spent my last three days with bil so i haven't had enough time to blog. we've been lesbian lovers for three nights at my apartment. seriously. my neighbors thought we're lovers. not that we aren't. but never on that level. it was funny, we can't help but laugh every time we see people STARING at us. we get that all the time. it's all we need in this time of ugh craps.
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chax and i decided to meet at school for this unknown appointment with ma'am ani. milleh told me it's kinda like about being under prob, so we thought about it.. ayun, it just so happened that she wants our record to be updated. like have this piece of paper signed, we're not under probation, haha :] wewei came right after then we had unexpected plans to go to the mall so suddenly. watch a movie. inaasar namin si bil sa forbidden kingdom or what happens in vegas, no offense, i love ashton, kaso these movies are like pirated-copy material, hindi large screen material, so we decided to watch IRONMAN instead kase according to chaksito ko, mataas ang rating :]] since it's scheduled 1.20, we had lunch at wendy's muna.. i had a yummy big ceasar salad. i have been craving for this one since we last went sa pancake house. and my braces are not gonna stop me! haha :]] afterthen, nag-camwhoring na kami sa movie house, nakakatwa but it was fun.
watched IRONMAN.. that was one of the greatest MARVEL COMICS TURNED TO MOVIE thing. gaad, tlgang natuwa kaming tatlo! haha :] good thing kase we really need a good laugh ee. :] and we had it.
plinano naming mag-ice cream kaso tlgang mailap samin ang pagkkataon at nauwi na kami sa scoopery. which was very unfortunate kase i can't bite the friggin cone! :[ i was very frustrated :[ ugh.


afterthen, nagpunta na kami sa apartment ko, talked non-stop then watched criminal minds, gossip girl and simple life :] it was fun. tapos hinatid na namin si chaksito ko ata round 6pm.. bil stayed with me, im happy she did. talked non-stop.. blah-blah. we miss yanners and mars :[
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we came up with this cool idea : SERIES. :]
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i had the worst morning the next day.
have you ever had this feeling like you can hear your heartbeat in your ears? feeling your stomach falling down your butt? and having this huge lump on your throat like after you dry-swallow a big pill? well, aside from cady heron, i felt all that. the silly thing is, it's all because of a lame text. bil's still asleep, i couldn't wake her.. pretty much, i can't explain it here, but bottom line is, it sucks big time to be tricked. to get fooled. worse than being cheated.
just do me a favor, don't you dare use my lines against me. it's of no use. i'll talk to you when you really get home. as of now, i think we're done. i don't know how to end it but if i don't, it just wouldn't feel right.. maybe i need time? i just suck at goodbyes. and im choking on your alibis.

talked to bil just when she woke up. went to school then visit the mall. it's good to have a best friend and a salon therapy. i had my hair cut. went home again, talked non-stop with bil, pigged out, laughed, felt sad, colored bil's hair cherry brown. it was fun :] tapos, nag-malandi lang kame, she curled my hair. i quite forgot my dilemmas. ugh, life is uncontrollably exhilarating.


meet my new boyfriend
the next day, inayos lang namin apartment tapos punta naman kami sa kanila. tita cecile's coming home and tis is where another drama starts. blah-blah.
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we're gonna cross dress next week. im excited. there's never a dull moment when im with you, bil. thank you too for bearing the heartaches and 'those' silly thoughts with me. i love you.
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and oh, btw. bil cut my bangs:
isa na daw akong innocent bitch kase my full bangs nako uli, haha.
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uwi muna kong bahay. me and achii has plans for mama tomorrow. :]
happy mother's day everyone.

I KNOW RIGHT?!

i was with wewei and millie last night :] kailangan nya kase ng crisis management, haha :] so yea, after i met my mom at around 8.30, i headed to milli bitch's place :] andun din si jub, friend ni milli.. and her boyfriend. tapos, gossip much lang kame, tapos ini-spill na ni wewei yung something freaky that happened to her like two days ago.. creepy tlga. tapos ako naman hot seat nila millie everytime jub goes out of the room, xempre confidential material daw yung info ko, haha.

jub left around 10pm, i guess.. afterwhich, nagmalandi kami ni millie at nagmake-upan kame, something i don't usually do, well not much, anyway. camwhoring.

slept with bil afterwards, millie on the other bed with a friend tapos ayun. haha :]]
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woke up, millie gone. nasa school na sila, kwentuhan uli with bil then partways na.. grocery muna ko sa walter then lunch sa mcdo. fastfood much, loves it! haha :] linis ng room, went to office to have my eval at para makita si father jess!! ai ai, mis na mis ko na ang bangs nya!

may nagbago, nagpagupit sya! na-shock ako, haha :] sa ngayon, pinagpaplanuhan pa namin kung part pa sya ng Mama mo Group, haha :] at kasalukuyan syang nagmamalndi sa likod ko. haha! :]]
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magpapakain nga pala si sir choi, duh. sana sagutan nya na eval form ko kase super done na ko sa OJT.
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feeling ko sosorpresahin ako ng paguwi ni beb. HUNCH.

METAL-MOUTH

tagal kong di nakapag-blog. it's a good thing i'd have to write not talk to tell stories here, mejo mahirap akong magsalita ngayon.. i just got my braces yesterday :] masakit sya, sigh.

muka ba akong nerd? o ok lang??

so ayun, rj and i met at starbucks, manila just right after i got my braces.. actually, di pa xa tapos, upper teeth palang, wala kasing available na molar band for my lower teeth yesterday so sabi ni doc cath, balik daw ako by next weekend to get my lower teeth done :] thankful naman ako at napakagaan ng kamay ni ate cat, i swear. sumakit lang yung braces ko nung midnight na, so technically, wala pakong matinong tulog..

chocolate cream and chip.
strawberries and cream.
VENTI :]

i was about to order yung dulce de leche kaso naman i've realized na di advisable since my caffeine yun, baka lalo akong di makatulog :x had a biscotti and my favorite sbucks lolli :] nag-edit na "kami" ni rj, haha. ayun, after about two hours or so, achii arrived, kwentuhan much lang kami,


i showed your yung mga shina-paholic series ko [i bought 3 clothes at freeway at one top sa just G] kaya mejo guilt trip ako pero im happy. gave her her allowance tapos ayun.. around 8.40 na kami nag-partways nila rj. we had dinner at mcdo tapos dun muna ko sa dorm nya since gabi na at katakot na umuwi ng cavite :]

FWSB

sa mga pagkakataong ganito, ayoko munang maniwala sa plane crash. [insert reasons here.]

may nabasa ako kanina:
"YOU ARE IN SUCH A WEIRD AFFAIR."

napaisip tuloy ako anung context ng message na to?

anyway, puyat ako na hindi. kahapon, i had fun with my neighbors sa compound kase bday ni socky, best friend ni roel. akala ko nung una mag-on sila, "best friends" lang pala. haha :] so ayun, buti nlang talga kase super bored aku, nag-pig out lang kami kila socky, sarrap ng cake, loves it! tapos late na dumating sina russ at julia, pero ok narin, masaya naman kami lalo. tapos, texted yanners about something, invite nya ko sa house nila kaso im too lazy kaya ayun, extension nlng ng saya.. [insert story here] haha :] hanep talaga, tulog agad ee. labu ko? basta, dry.
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nagkasama-sama kami uli ng Mama mo group, kaso kulang kami :[ push kami sa time zone, xempre tapos talgang pinaghirapan namin makuha si doraemon para emblem ng internship team namin, coolness :] nakuha naman namin xa. had lunch, push na sa office, edit docu. last day na nito tom, hopefully matapos na tlga kase super sobra na yung OJT hours ko, hindi ko na nagamit yung bonus hours ko dahil sa singapore tour. anyway, fun naman :]

nagkausap din kami ni bil kanina, namimis ku na tlga si wewei, grabe. it makes me sick :x ayun, spilled some beans, kwentuhan, blah blahs. i so miss bil :[ im happy we got the chance to talk again kase super busy nga sya lately..

btw, this weird dream has been visiting my bubuu for quite some time na, im getting worried. :[ i hope it's just nothing.

SHORT TERM MEMORY LOSS

ANU KA GOLD FISH? short term memory loss ka jan.
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di ako nakapag-blog kahapon, i was too tired to hit the iNET :[ di parin namin tapos yung pag-edit ng docu.. i was like awake til 6am sa pagtatranscribe ng script while everyone's asleep, rj trying to edit. by morning talagang sabog ako at sila naman gising ako tulog. nocturnal much, eh?
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namis ko tumbler ko :] salamat at marami akong natutunan-slash-nalaman kagabi. amnesia.
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so yea, galing akong office earlier, pero yung ibang MAMA MO group nasa PLM pa, while sila nicaa and mix naman, nasa ballet na :[ it sucks, i miss them so much. super cheesy tlga namin the other day kase jess started it all when he gave us letters. super na-touch tlga ko.. btw, ginawa ni jess to kase magpa-partways na kami, malapit na. :[ kaya super pinu-push talga namin yung swimming namin sa san pablo, ganun kami naging close ng mga ka-team ko, ganap na ganap tlga! haha, loves it :]


landi ni jess no?? nakakatuwa tlga yung letter nya skin, talagang basta masarap basahin :]] ayun, nung nag-partways na kami, tlgang ang cheesy namin, nag-group hug pa kami sa high-way!! as in. sweet.
tapos nag-dance revo ako magisa kanina.. gaad, it sucks big time. it's just no fun withourt mix :[

naku anu pa bang sasabihin ko? ayun, bati na pala kami ni beb, nag-away kase kami kase namimis na nya daw ako. ee hell-O, kumusta naman Un, di ba? pero ok na :] malapit ka ng umuwi. ayan, matutulog na muna ako kase wala pa tlga akong tulog as in, di pa ko nakakabawi ng maigi. magpapataba nako uli.